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gothim_gurl
08 September 2008 @ 09:10 pm

I dont get it, its been almost a week Ive been on this diet. Ive been eatin right and excercising yet for some reason I felt so fckin fat today. I feel fat on my stomach, mysides, and my legs. I wanna lose ten pounds soooo bad. I tod myself not to weigh myself until a month so that way I wont get discouraged. Im doing the "special K " challenge and I work ot everyday as well as walking. Thi shit better work. I worked myself hard tonite it made me throw up. I really wanna be thin thin. 140 lbs is just not enough. I can dooo it !!!!!

Gothim
 
 
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gothim_gurl
06 September 2008 @ 11:07 pm

Ive been okay for awhile I mean I carry myself well all things considering but today I broke down. It was a good cry though. It was no more than 15 minutes, was enough to release my frustration and pain. Idk what it was really so many things went through my mind. Regarding my bf, my family, my day idk. I often feel like an orphan kinda feel like Im wakin this word alone. Nobody REALLY knows how I feel inside so its hard for me to even go there with anyone. I guess Im just looking for a friend.

Gothim
 
 
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gothim_gurl
02 September 2008 @ 08:55 pm
My name is Gothim. I am 21 I come from a battered family and a broken past. Im on my way to recovery as well as a bright future. I work full time at my new job as a telemarketer and I love it. I have stopped doing drugs and I have isolated myself from those who only bring me down. I am a writer I have a fantasy novel in the works as well as a poem book. I live with my boyfriend for 3 years + we live together and will get married one day. I am 140 lbs 5'11 my goal is to be 130. I started my diet today. thats all for now.

Gothim
 
 
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